Ive never been good at asking for help, maybe this is the kick in the pants I need to learn.
I get that he is probably (definately) seeing it differently to me, thats fine, I totally get it. What I dont understand is how he can see me in so much pain and just dismiss it, treat me like Im being lazy and selfish and like I should just move on. Im sure he doesnt mean it but hes being an ass right when I need him to support me.

And the 'last time I was/we were here/ doing this I was pregnant' going places and doing things that I havent done since, that sucks.

Thats the other thing, because he doesnt seem to care, I keep thinking 'our loss' but then thinking, 'well my loss really, he doesnt seem to feel hes lost anything'.

I dont know what I wouod do without being able to vent here and have someone listen and understand. Nothing I could say will ever be thanks enough.