What you are feeling is completely normal sweetie. I did that as well, with my first m/c every week up until my EDD I would think 'I should be X weeks this week'. As soon as you find out your are pg your baby starts to become a huge part of your life, hopes, and dreams. It's only natural to think about what should have been. Something that gives me some comfort is the belief that my angel babies are still with me in spirit.
Like Tootie, I did some things to help me work through my grief and to memorialise my little angels. After my 1st m/c I started a journal where I wrote down all of my feelings and stuck in the cards we got from friends. I got a nice box and put the journal and all of the little pg keep sakes in it. I did that for my 2nd m/c as well. My DH and I made a special little rock garden in our yard for our angel babies and quite often I go out there and put flowers on it. I find that it gives me some peace, especially on the more difficult days, to be able to have a physical place to go to and remember our babies. We also bought each of our angels a christmas decoration to go on the tree, and a couple of candles and small statues that sit on a shelf in our lounge room. I hope you are able to find something in these suggestions that might help you.
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