Thanks for the warm welcome ladies..... so sorry we are all here ..... Well I went to work today - it was hard esp when a close friend emailed me with his happy news that they are expecting their first due one week after us, asking for heaps of info and having their baby where we would have... Don't get me wrong I am so very happy for them but gee it hurt and I cried at my desk.... He didn't know about Hugh ...... But he wants to catch up- I don't know if I can face them but its not their fault and I don't want to be mean but I will look at her and think that should be me - gawd I sound like a cow