Miscarriage/Loss General Discussion #1

[Diamond Girl]

Saffy, just wanted to let you know that I tested positive for anticardiolipin antibodies about four months ago. I was put on daily clexane injections and asprin at the start of this pg. After three m/cs in a row I finally have what looks like a healthy bean growing. I just wanted to tell you this because I had no hope that I would ever carry another baby again, but this treatment seems to be working. I hope and pray you have the same results.

I regret too that I didnt push testing more after my second m/c and it still upsets me that my body failed my little ones too.

[Freya]

Saffy, Ive been where you are as well after testing being done! When I finally had a world renown miscarriage specialist tell me why Ive had 5 miscarriages and that Im lucky to even have had 3 successful pregnancies I felt like such a failure. Its easier to think it was out of your hands than the fact it was your own body sabotaging your efforts. Doomed before they even started.

I will be on a clexane and asprin regime when we get pregnant again (but I have antiphospholipid syndrome) and I am trying to be confident that it will be the right fix for a term, healthy pregnancy! Its hard to stay positive though (although DG I am so happy to hear your doing well!!!! Gives me alot of hope!)

[Freya]

I want updates from everyone! How are we all going?

How are our babies-in-waiting going?
How are our TTCers feeling?

Is anyone else playing the waiting-to-ttc game with me? Was it you Pak?

As for me, well I had a panic moment a few weeks back and actually told DH I didnt want anymore children. Im just so tired, physically and mentally these days (although I guess our situation influences that) and I just didnt feel I had anymore fight in me to ride the pregnancy merry-go-round again. I see newborn babies and my heart melts and breaks at the same time. He was really upset because I worked so hard convincing him to be cool with another baby (and he keeps mentioning "well and maybe one more" after that!) and then I go and yank it out from under him. But I worked through it, with the help of a couple of friends new babies, Im clucky but scared, which I suppose is normal. We'll definately go one more but if we have another miscarriage I am done. So Dh is home very soon and should be in time for the start of my cycle sooooooo we'll be TTC a little European souvenier

[Miss.September]

We're TTC I thought last month may have been a success, even though I knew it wasn't possible, I allowed myself to hope and get excited only for AF to turn up and shake her fist at me.

I'm feeling excited and anxious. More anxious, me thinks. In a blink of an eye it can all be over. All the hope and dreams. And yet it can go so right too. I'm being positive. I'm going for a walk, eating well and the moment that bit of self pity and sadness creeps in, I find something to do. So I have very clean walls, a nicely pruned front garden and clean light fittings in my kitchen

Telly - How are you going beautiful?

DG - I'm so happy for you. Loved reading your other thread, you must be so relieved.

Saffy - Got my fingers crossed for you that now you have some answers, you'll have a bubba soon!

Freya - Not long to go now! I think things get harder the closer it gets. DH must be excited too! Hope you get your BFP during your travels!

Maruschke - How are you going hun?

Hi to anyone that I've missed. Hope you're all okay

[Freya]

DH is beyond excited. Its all he talks about, which is actually really annoying because for me; yeah I am excited and I get butterflies when I think about picking him up at the airport but Im also so nervous because 8mths is a long time to be alone, raising the kids and running the life that suits us. Im also in a bit of a holding pattern, I know its coming and its not far away but it just doesnt seem 'real' if that makes sense? We've got tons happening between now and then; halloween parties and birthdays and to start getting the christmas stuff organised, packing for Europe. Hopefully it makes time fly but right now its draaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagging on.

[Cocolove]

Hi guys
Ive just lost my baby at 5wks & 3 days pregnant!
All i want to do is start TTC straight away, is that stupid?

[Maruschke]

Hi guys
Ive just lost my baby at 5wks & 3 days pregnant!
All i want to do is start TTC straight away, is that stupid?

No, not silly at all

[Cocolove]

No, not silly at all

I just dont want people to think i dont care about this baby because i do, i loved this baby and if i could get this baby back I would but i cant.
So hopefully his/her spirit will return and grant me a healthy bundle>

This wasnt meant to happen! One of my best friends lost her baby too and we were due on the same day, what are the odds of that Just so devestated