Jane, reading your story brings back all the pain of my missed m/c.... I found out I had lost my bubba at my 12 wk (at 11w 6d) - I didn't have any signs or any hint at what I was about to be told. It rocked my world in the most horrendous way. But now I am doing ok & TTC another bub. My BF was due 3 wks after I would have been & I still find that very hard.... You will be ok though & will get through it & I hope it is not long at all before you & DH can look forward to welcoming another dear baby into this world. It really is unfair what some of use have to go through but in the end I think it makes us stronger/ better people who take nothing for granted. All the best & MERRY CHRISTMAS to you!!!!