Goldilocks, honey, I am so very sorry for what you have had to go through. No-one deserves such heartache - least of all someone like you who is so vivacious and supportive and wonderful. Please dont tell yourself that this was in any way deserved - regardless of whether you fell quickly or not - whether you try for 10 years or fall straight away, a loss is a loss and you have the right to be just as angry, just as devestated, feel just as jaded as anyone.

You are very lucky to have yourself such a wonderful man who holds you up - and one day both of you will make wonderful parents.

It tore my heart out as soon as I saw that you had posted in here.... know that I am thinking of you and wishing there was more that could be said or done. Its just not fair. Take care of yourself my friend. :hugs: