Goldilocks I am so very sorry for the experience that you have just had, my deepest thoughts are with you at this difficult time.

I have finished reading your post through my tears, you have described your journey with so much clarity considering what you have just been through.

Take the time to heal yourself & your mind & treasure that wonderful husband of yours, I am sure that soon you will enjoy the miracle of pregnancy again when you are ready. Until that time please know that we are all here for you whenever you need someone to talk too.