Nadia I am so sorry! My heart sank when I saw this thread, I can't believe I only just saw it now...

Ditto what kel said, let yourself heal a bit before making any decisions, there still might be light at the end of the tunnel, maybe you just need to find the right switch... and if not as you say your children will light the way... either way I support you I just want your happiness.

*hugs*
Cailin