Nadia, you are in no way pathetic. You are VERY confused right now. I think what you really need to do is to take the time to really think about what you want, not what others are saying that you should want. Take the time to heal from this emotionally too, then make a decision when you are in your right mind. Don't worry about what your mum says, pffffft to her I say. You do what's right for you and your family hun, don't worry about what anyone else thinks or says.

You are not a hypocrite either, you're a woman, women always change their minds, and it's our god given right to do so, lol. And know whatever decision you do make we are all behind you 100%.

Lots of love and huge to you, and big wet sloppy kisses from Jonah.