Anna I am also very very sorry you are going through this. Like I said in my text "the universe is a very very cruel place at times" So by no means did anything you or your DH said in the heat of the moment cause this to happen
As for TTC again only you and DH can decide on that and be at peace with that decision. Please be gentle on yourself and DH as you travel through this difficult and sad time. I wish I could make things very different for you and take your pain away
Please call me anytime day or night if you want someone to talk too or cry with or whatever you need at the time