I lost my precious, perfect son Cooper on 28 November last year. I still miss him and cry for him every single day. I still don't understand how or why it happened but what I do understand is that it happened and that it hurts, hurts so much. We had struggled 2 years to conceive Cooper and were so excited about his arrival when at 37 weeks he was cruelly taken from us by the cord......................the cord that is supposed to him give life. What a design fault!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It has been 4 months, 2 weeks and 3 days since Cooper was born (yes he was Stillborn but still born, and perfect) and the pain is still so raw. Why when someone is so perfect are they taken from us????????????????????????????????????????????????

I found out a few weeks ago that my twin sister is pregnant. I felt that this was announced in a way that was not sensitive to our grief or struggle. But I guess until you have been through a loss of this magnitude you don't understand. She is still very early on in her pregnancy and while I wish her all the best and hope that she gets her screaming, pooing baby in her arms, how do I cope with it?????? I know it isn't anyone else's problem or fault that I struggle to fall pregnant and that I lost my perfect son but how I do I deal with it. I have had a few friends birth their babies not long after me (but they were pregnant at the same time) but I still haven't been able to see them or their babies because it is too hard. How can I see their baby when I don't have mine here????????? Cooper was perfect and healthy in every single way and was just beautiful.................................it was just the stupid cord!!!!!!!!

I just don't know how I am supposed to deal with my sister's pregnancy when I am still grieving the loss of my son and in a way I feel like my family should still be grieving.

How do I cope??????????????