Tiff - i'm so glad Ivy and Noah are gaining so well. It sounds as if your twins are well on the way to coming home with you. You're right re Noah, no news is good news. \/

I discharged myself from hospital 2 days after the birth, because I had already been in hospital for 8 weeks and I felt so depressed I knew I had to get back home asap fir my own sanity. But when I was home, I felt as if my body was screaming 'i've just had a baby, where is she now' sort of thing. I was such a mess.

The nurses at NICU were ok, but I just felt so unconnected to the entire situation. I felt like an outsider looking in.

I admire your strength tiff, I really do. I don't know if I can cope with having another prem baby. This last year has torn me apart. I feel as if (even now) I put one foot in front of the other, and try to block out what's happened. My dh doesn't like to talk about it, and I feel like no one else understands.

Becc - Seren is totally fine now though. She weighs 12lb15oz and is nearly 8 months old now. She seems quite content and happy. How are you getting on?

You have been through so much, keep going and give us loads of updates!