I, on the other hand, AM a total psycho killer... so probably best I live interstate

I'm sorry you didn't get rest honey - I hope you can get some soon and that you all feel better soon.

I know you know that the way you're feeling is normal - but don't forget to lean on those around you when you need it... and right now you need it. I'm sending super hugs to you now - I wish I could do something to help you out.