Hey ladies Sounds like a few of us are struggling in here I am not doing so well, and hating myself for it. I am up and down like a yoyo, and TBH the ups are not so great. I AM happy that we've come this far, I am so relieved. But I'm struggling for some reason, and really not enjoying things. I dread going to bed each night now, I almost wish to go into labour just so we knew what was happening. And that is so terrible, I can't believe that thought could run through my head . I know rationally that they longer I'm pg the better it will be for EVERYONE, but I'm not feeling very rational ATM . I hate that I'm awake for hours in the night, I hate that doing the simplest things wears me out. I hate that I can't go out and have a social life, I am really missing that. I have wonderful friends who come and spend time with me and DS, which really does help, but I miss the independence, you know? Just deciding for myself how I will spend my days, where we'll go, what we'll do. I know this is all short term, and it's all in the interest of keeping our baby healthy. And that is really what I want. DS totally wears me out, but at the same time, I'm so grateful to have him around, he is very entertaining, and cheers me up .

I'm so sorry to come in here and vent like this, I know lots of you are having a bad time ATM. Thinking of you all (hope that croup buggers off Anna, it is the PITS!)

Michelle, where are you my love?????