Hi girls. Scan was all good and the littlest man is measuring to dates so far. Relieved but desperately wanting a Greggles cuddle to make everything alright again Not happening I know but I can dream. Next scan is in 4 weeks to monitor progress.

Just wishing this wasn't my world, my life. I am lonely despite being surrounded and unbelievably sad. I feel empty and hollow and just a shell that functions to survive. My babies are my world but it is so hard to keep going every day when this blackness would be so much easier to give in to.

Don't panic. I'm not at risk. Just miserable and missing him so much that it hurts. My little man told Nanny and Poppy that he didn't have a Daddy anymore, his Daddy died it breaks my heart every time.