BUN _ Alan his home on 23 June. Only 10 more days to go. Today I'm back in denial stage. I flutter between, anger, despair, heartbroken-ness & denial. Today is denial. I didn't manage breakfast, nor have I today, but I did get summoned to my besties place last night where her mum had cooked me my favourite chicken fricassee (sp?), dish. I managed to eat a little bit, plus some dip & crackers that I had made. So I have eaten something. I haven't managed anything today, but I have lunch at a school friends place, so I'm sure I'll be fine today. How is Joshua now? Has he settled down? How is the dummy wars?

LEE _ I'm loving how 'calm' you are seeming these days. It sounds to me as though you have faced many demons and you are on your road to recovery - do you feel like that as well?

Big hello's & happy sunday vibes to everybody.

Jayne x