I don't know where to start .........

I am really struggling with this motherhood thing, Shae is gorgeous but sometimes I just cannot handle her.

She flatly refuses to take the right breast and will scream bloody murder until the left side is offered. I have tried expressing some and feeding it to her to take the edge off, I have tried offering her favourite side for a little while then switching but have no luck with that either.

She will not settle no matter what we do, change her, feed her, burp her, walk her nothing works she gets over tired and screams.I cannot comfort her, DH cannot comfort her nothing works.

I am almost at the end of my tether, DH wants me to call my mum (yeah she is the last person on earth I would call), The way I am feeling right now I could easily pack my bags and just walk away and leave her and DH to it.

You would think after everything we have been through that I would be happy but I am beginning to question whether or not I have made a HUGE mistake. I have spent more time crying and feeling frustrated and screaming then I have in "baby bliss" I have no idea what I am doing and despite his best efforts to console me I feel like I am failing dismally. I have tried to talk to the MHN and all I got was "this is normal, babies cry blah blah blah " c'mon seriously give me something to work with or I am going to lose my mind. I have told the LC about the feeding problems "just give it more time" Yeah you tell that to the screaming banshee that replaces my little girl EVERY TIME I try to feed her.

I don't want to express, I don't want to formula feed, I want to feed my baby from the boob and I want it to be an enjoyable experience.

Please -

If you feel the need to respond to this thread, don't kick me while I am down, I love my baby I just cannot stand the way things are at the moment.

Nae