dont be hard on yourself! You are doing te right thing trusting your instincts and cuddling her to sleep. By doing this for her you now have to cuddle her for every sleep, this doesn't suit everyone but it is okay, you can just relax and do it. The other mums who put their babies in the cot and let them cry to sleep have to spend hours each day listening to their poor babies cry. Instead you get to spend those hours snuggling your precious happy baby to sleep. You shouldn't feel bad, you should feel lucky, you are doing a wonderful job!