And you know what? this particular "lack of time" issue will only last for a season (ie until you feel comfortable leaving her in creche etc, or until she goes to kindy) so if you can't see any way of having substantial down-time at the moment, why don't you encourage yourself by planning ahead for next year or the following one... you know, maybe say ok at the end of next year I want to get back into studies, or by Christmas I want to be able to leave my DD with a close friend for an hour a week so I can go to the gym/go shopping etc. Sometimes we create more frustration and discouragement by fighting against something when it just isn't our time to fight that particular battle IYKWIM. keep going, you'll get through this.