The first few weeks can be really really hard, even when people have lots of support around. So when you don't have much family around, it has got to be tougher. Even though i knew i was having a bub, and had been getting ready for 9 months, nothing really prepared me for all the thoughts and feelings that would go through my head. And when i was not getting enough (much/any) sleep, it was so much harder to keep my thoughts 'normal'.

Bubs normally smile at around 5 or 6 weeks, and i reckon this is because this is about the toughest time for parents, and they need a pick me up to keep going. It will get better, you will feel the love for your little girl, and she will love you right back.

Please talk to the health nurse or a GP, and they can check that bub is ok and that you are doing ok too. The two of you have been through huge changes in just a short time, and sometimes you might need a bit of help to make the adjustments.

take care,

Kate