I'm a regular here but need some privacy for this one.

DD is just over a month old. I look at her and feel nothing. She is CONSTANTLY feeding and if not that screaming. I manage maybe 3 hours sleep a night and thats with her in our bed. I HATE it. I can't stand looking at her and I'm sick of listening to her and cuddling her.
I feel like the worst mum ever for feeling this way. I feel nothing when I look at her and all I want to do is let her lay there and cry except it drives me insane.
I have no family (from either side) close that can help me (DH's O/Seas and mine about 8 hours away) and have no real friends that can help me out either. ( the whole friends thing is another thread all together)

I want to scream. I'm sitting here crying after feeding for like the 6th time since midnight. I don't want to do this anymore. I just want to take her and leave her with someone who can care for her better than I can. She deserves a much better parent than me!