please let us know if we can help in practical ways. I am also in Melbourne.

Your feelings are not uncommon and it doesn't mean you have pnd or are not 'bonding'. Night times are tough and the sense of isolation and lonliness is so great. I used to have anxiety every evening just waiting to see what the night would bring.

I remember wanting to deposit dd on a doorstep. I also remember sobbing in the bathroom until I was shaking. You have some pretty intense hormones happening, and have severe sleep deprivation...which changes your brains ability to function and rationalize. It's so tough.

You're not alone. Many of us have been where you are. You will come through this, but you need sleep first of all. I would suggest going to your family if you can. You need a retreat style week off, where someone takes the baby all day and you sleep and only wake for feeds. Alternatively can your dh take leave for a week. This is important... You need some help. I personally didn't like the gp or mchn approach but my family rallied for me.