I have PTSD from several VERY bad hospital experiences. I too fell from a horse and I broke both my arms. The care was appalling and bordered on malpractice. Nurses refused to attend to me because I called to them instead of using the call button (which I couldn't work due to having two broken arms) I too was with a dementure patient who kept trying to pull my drip out as she was an ex-nurse. I had two very bad recoveries from aneasthetic on that stay.
The next hospital stay was for "simple day surgery" and I reacted badly to aneasthetic although I warned them......ended up in intensive care.
The next stay was for the birth of my daughter Ellen. I held off on being induced because of my extreme fear of the hospital and because I was so fearful I ended up losing my daughter. She was induced because she had already died inutero at 41 weeks.
I am now pg again and in absolute fear of the hospital. Any small hiccups scare the heck out of me and my husband also has a high distrust oif the hospital. We do not believe they actually care for us well at all.
I have done some things to try and help myself.
here's a list
- I have made a VERY detailed birth plan
-I have made sure none of the people who brought Ellen into the world will attend this birth
- I have spoken with the social worker and she is organising a conference for all the people involved in the birth so they know I will stutter and be very frightened and so they know our story and don't ask inappropriate questions.
- I have visited the hospital often to try and de-sensitize myself......not sure if this is a good idea but I'm trying it.
- I have found a midwife I like and I am seeing her regularly and she hopes (shifts pending) to be there when my baby is delivered.
- I saw a pshycologist for a while but she was fairly useless so I stopped seeing her.
- I take my hubby to as many appointments as possible
- they are arranging for my hubby to be able to stay in hospital with me if this becomes difficult I plan to leave
- I use rescue remedy as required to be able to survive the visits
Hope some of these ideas help
Good luck
Kate
I hope some of these ideas help