And I feel like I'm in this alone. We've only told my parents and MIL and FIL.
I've tried talking to my parents about my fears and they're just all "Oh, but Beez will be healthy. And you'll be fine. Don't worry about it."

Well I am worried about it. I walk around and suddenly I'll start thinking 'what if things go wrong again?' and my heart starts pounding.
I'm just so anxious. I feel like I'm about to break into a panic attack any second.
I hate a single thing out of place in the house, I want to hurry up and start offering money on the house we want but can't for another few weeks. I'm scared we won't be ready for Beez to come and I'm only 14w.

I hate talking about it because i feel so weak.