I'm going to do another birth plan. I don't feel strong enough to do it today. I honestly just want to cry but the tears won't come. DD is coming down with a cold and is teething so she's extremely clingy. She's due to wake up any minute now.
I'll keep the women's circles thingy in mind, but we rarely go to Melbourne. Only if DD has appointments at the Royal Children's. And she's only got 1 this year.

I tried to talk my mother about how I'd prefer to birth at home and she just told me I was stupid because of the risk of my c/s scar rupturing is too high and I've never given birth before so I won't know what i'm doing.
And, in reality, we're trying to buy a house. So I can't homebirth and buy a house. We just don't have the money.

My dream birth is waterbirth. I know I won't get it because of having a c/s 13 months ago.
The stubborn part of me thinks "Stuff all of you! If our mate moves to town I'll just labour there for as long as possible! And, oh dear, no time to get to the hospital!" And then Beez is born at our mate's place.