Hun i am so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel. I am scared to go and get my 12 week scan but i would prefer to know. I had a scan at 8 weeks and that showed a little heart beat so i hope all is still going well.
If i am not feeling ill or something one day i automatically assume that i have m/c but then morning sickness come back the next day 2 times as bad. I honestly would prefer to feel like dog poop that way i know that bub is still there.
Good luck and i really hope all goes well for you.