Hi all,
I'm new to this internet forum stuff so i hope i've got this right on how to post stuff! I only just found this site and i want to acknowledge how helpful it is. I have a story to add because i am currently experiencing what some of you havedescribed: warning this could contain tmi.

My husband and I decided to start trying for kids 4 months ago. I had been on the pill for 9 years consistently and had always had regular periods. When i came off the pill in April 08 i had a withdrawal period but nothing since... no periods... no pain... nothing. I went to see my local GP on 7th August and we were doing some tests to see what my ovaries were doing... progesterone, prolactin, oestrogen etc. Imagine my surprise when she called to say i was pregnant! Obviously we have no idea how far we are because i have no LMP date.

My husband has been away for work lately and i've only seen him a handful of times so we figure we must be at least 6 weeks preg. This is our first pregnancy. We are elated.

So on friday night i was going to the toilet.. and i was straining a little... and noticed a tiny streak of fresh red blood on loo paper. Freaked... spent the night hysterical. Since then have had 2 days of dark brown spotting... not on undies... not needing a pad. I was using a panty liner and literally had about a 5c piece size of spotting each day. Always on the loo paper when i wiped though.

Saw my doctor and she was about as helpful as my husband! Kind... but unhelpful! I have an ultrasound tomorrow.

I am absolutely freaking out. I cant concentrate on anything. All i keep thinking is 'have i lost it'. I want desperately to believe i havent and i have read so many inspiring stories... but there is always that little bit of pessimism. I know these things happen for a reason.

I just want everyone to know that i'm thankful for the stories i read which keep me level headed...that it doesnt matter how much you know or how much you read we all get freaked by these things... and the funny thing is I am a doctor and i still dont have a clue what is going on! haha