Hi all,
Well i didnt even make it to the ultrasound. My beta hCG came back today at 1400 and we found out we are about 6-7wks along. My 2 days of light spotting (dark brown.. not even enough for a panty liner let alone a pad) turned into a real scare when i had a shower tonight and saw tiny clots and fresh blood. It was exactly like having a period... cramps and aches in lower back, bloated feeling, plenty of blood when i wiped but not really any on pad.

Got to hospital an hour later... waited for several more... then finally got to see the O&G reg. They actually sounded positive that i hadnt passed huge 50c piece size clots and hadnt soaked a pad or more than one. I had a speculum exam... it showed we have lost the bub.... thankfully i didnt pass any tissue, but during the exam they removed quite a bit. I tried to keep a strong face. I need an ultrasound in the morning to see if i need a D&C. I think i am in shock.

The pain has gone but now i just feel empty. I am so mad because i had so much to offer. I know that isnt rational.. i know it was natures way of saying something wasnt right, that this is for the best. It doesnt feel any better though. My poor hubby is devastated... he is blocking the phone calls from my several siblings and parents. I just dont know how i am going to get through the night.

I just had to update everything.. it is almost like a release writing on this forum. I wish things were different... but for my negative experience there is likely to be someone having a positive experience out there somewhere.