i want out

[bluetree07]

i wont abandon my beautiful family. theres just so many tough times and all i want is for my son to have a happy mummy and im not a happy mummy, im a sad crying one and i feel so sorry for him :-(

[LimeSlice]

Aw that sounds awful hun I am sorry you lost it tonight, happens to the best of us though, you are not alone.

Have you and DP thought about counselling? It may very well help you both speak to each other about the things that are underpinning this experience for you both at the moment.
Unplanned pregnancy is one thing, but an unplanned with an uncommitted must be exceptionally tough.

Check out the private support groups here too, there must be some of us who have had similar experiences and can help.

[Kazbah]

BlueTree - definately follow LS's advice. Contact your GP or midwife, and have a chat with them about this. Are you being treated for depression or other MI? There are a lot of stresses involved with having a toddler, let alone being pregnant as well. Finding strategies to cope will really help you now and into the future.

We're here, and feel free to PM me or to post in the Depression & Anxiety forum for support.
https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...splay.php?f=38

[~Lashes~]

massive i hope in time you are able to destress and enjoy the final weeks, it can be tough especialy when unplaned. as hard as it may seem the thought of 2, that would mostly be a fear of the unknown, i have no idea how im going to cope with 4 under 6 in a few weeks, but i know this is just how i get, the fear of the unknown, i hope you are ok and find a way to sort out whats going in your head, maybe try and talk about your fears with your patner? you never know he may feel the same.

[RhiChiChi]

Huge hugs, just want to echo everyone elses thoughts. Be kind to yourself and seek professional help

[Sagres]

I couldn't read this and not post. I promise you that your situation (being very pregnant, hormones going this way and that, this freaking heat, cabin fever, probably lack of sleep, uneasy family situation) is making everything so much harder to deal with and to a certain extend how you are feeling is a result of some really really tough circumstances. Cut yourself some slack, we are all going to have our good days and our bad days and when you are in the situation you are in the bad days are going to be worse and more frequent, and that is OK.

Seriously everyone has snapped at some point when things all got too much but it is OK, your DS will forget about the yelling soon enough.

But I think for today and tomorrow you need to talk to your GP or Ob or Beyond Blue. Please do that for us, and for you, and for your partner and for your DS.
Depression is a disease that can make you think and say things that you normally wouldn't think or say, so perhaps you need a little helping hand to get out of the depression you are in at the moment so you can think straight and make things a bit easier for yourself. Take care and I will be thinking of you...x

[bluetree07]

thank you everyone for your support and kind words!

I'm feeling much better tonight but still feeling quite depressed :-( my mum took toddler for the day and i got lots of rest and had time to think. now i just have to deal with mum being "so worried about me" and "you need to go see the doctor"!

I'm seeing the midwife tomorrow, we'll see. I am feeling more positive about the future now.

thanks again.