massive i hope in time you are able to destress and enjoy the final weeks, it can be tough especialy when unplaned. as hard as it may seem the thought of 2, that would mostly be a fear of the unknown, i have no idea how im going to cope with 4 under 6 in a few weeks, but i know this is just how i get, the fear of the unknown, i hope you are ok and find a way to sort out whats going in your head, maybe try and talk about your fears with your patner? you never know he may feel the same.