Lisa, I'm so glad your cousin came over, even if to only be a shoulder to cry on and someone to talk to. Again, I am so very sorry you are going through this , and I'm with Nae, I am holding onto even a tiny bit of hope that your bub is OK. I'm sending you as much strength and love I can muster, big hugs sweetie, thinking of you.
Please stick little one
Beata xxooxxoo