Thank you mel, right now i dont think i would be very good company, i just keep staring at the computer and crying, i feel so numb.

I havent even feed kainne breakfast, i keep thinking why, what did i do, why is mother nature doing this to me, and of course i get the whole thing from my mum about u already have 5 kids, maybe ur uterus cant handle any more, maybe there was something wrong with it, of course they are the logical answers, but i dont want logic, i wanna have a baby at xmas, i wanna still be pregnant!!!

I want my husband here with me,!