I don't actually know you BW, but I would never describe you as a bitter and twisted person. You seem to have so much time and empathy for other people!

Our life experiences shape us, and sometimes scar us, that's true. Given everything that you've been through, and are still going through, it's hardly surprising that you feel this way. And it can be hard not to let the bitterness swallow us sometimes - I hope the people who love you can help to pull you out when it gets really bad, starting with your lovely little Sam.