Thank you to both Lise and London miss for your responses <3

Lise -=- I really do believe you are having a girl based on what the sonographer said I would go ahead with your plans anyway and well.. if it turns out to be a boy I would bet ur feelings would only be of dissapointment for a VERY short time. you'll look at how unbelievably perfect and healthy ur baby is and forget why you would possibly feel that way in the first place (although I do understnad why because you had bonded with a girl) trust me when u meet lil one no matter what they are or what they look like they are perfect.. seeing your very own baby wriggling and defensless completely frail and tiny struggiing to get there first glimpses of the world and find where mummy went is the most overwhealming sight you'll ever feel.. its just so surreal and crazy to know they belong to you and how much they need you its impossible not to love them completely frm that moment

I know that sentence doesnt make alot of sense but im sure u get what im saying ..

London miss -=- unfortunately its normal hun! Ive been getting that pretty much from the start and yeh.. not the best feeling in the world.. blah lol

i know what you mean about shopping.. its sooo much effort without a car isnt it! And you know what u are absolutely right.. I did end up txting one of my best gfs this morning asking her if she was headed down the shops today.. she said she was and when I asked if i could tagg along to get out of the house and pick up a few things she was on my doorstep with the hour! Then after we got down the shops and I ran my errands I asked her what she needed to do noticing she hadnt picked up any groceries and she turned to me smiled and said " I needed to get you out of the house for a bit " I felt so embarrassed and nice at the same time shes such a sweety

You are both right too Al of the bad thoughts depression brings are completely irrational.. I do know I have plenty of gfs who love me and we catch up all the time.. And lise i think what you said really proved to me the power of being stuck at home while DH's at work for a while can really do to us! Its true nothing has changed hes not away any more or less then he has been the past 3 yrs but being pregnant really does make u need more company.. especially when the normal things u keep ureself busy with like work and walking and all the things u stop doing when u get to big go away..

I do feel so much better since venting to my bellies and im so gratefull for your replys its nice to know im not the only one suffering from time to time and others know what its like..

I think things will all go back to normal after we all settle in the next few weeks.. But thank you so much again I am so so gratefull for finding belly belly! Its definately been wonderful finding such great friends in complete strangers that I can open up to anytime but at the same time never feel its to personal because Ive never met any of you haha!
Take care and i hope we are all well!

hmm not hearing much from lilmiss.. could it be

<3 Ky