The joy will come. Even if you don't feel it now, try to make memories of this pregnancy that you can reflect on when the stress has left. And that may be after the baby arrives. I don't think I ever really felt joy during my pregnancies despite loving being pregnant. I miss not having felt brave enough to live in the moment and enjoy each positive rather than worry about the potential negatives and the what ifs. There were good moments but I still think they were overshadowed by the fear.

Talk away. Having your fears out in the open often makes them less overwhelming than tucked away in your head