Meredith - as a long term follower I had to post. Wishing you all the luck and sticky vibes there are! Take all the support you can muster you deserve it
Aggggggghhhhhhhh this horrible yet miraculous saga continues. After surviving the last week,I started bleeding heavily again this afternoon. Pouring out for about 45mins and now eased to a trickle. The u/s clinic knows me well by now so was squeezed in not long ago. By some miracle, my two precious bubbas are doing fine. Both measuring exactly 8wks( which I am today) with HRs of 170 and 180ish. Not able to see any source of bleeding today which is amazing given how much was coming out but I am not complaining.
I guess i may have to accept that this is going to keep happening on about a weekly basis but worried that i am going to somehow "use up" all the luck these babies have had so far. Please hang in there little ones, please please!!! I am not sure my heart can take much more.
DH admitted to me yesterday that he is emotionally "worn out" by this whole baby journey and hence the common perception by me that he has little empathy..... he has literally run out of compassion. I can understand because I am well past being worn out too but makes it hard when we both need support right now that neither can provide.
Meredith, what an incredible journey you're on - what a rollercoaster. I hope that you and dh are able to relax soon and recharge and get to a point where you can stop worrying.
So happy to hear that those two little miracles are happy and strong in there. I think how your DH feels is how many men feel. It just is so difficult. Often men don't have the same drive to procreate as we do. It's tough. Meet in the middle with your differences - try to accept that you are journeying the same path - but doing it differently. A day at a time. You are 8 weeks - YIPPPEEE!!!!!
I know that you will not feel "safe" until these babies are in your arms - but until then we are all here. We get it. You ARE supported...
Meredith, 2 of my friends from MG got pg with twins last year and both had quite a bit of bleeding early on, one had 2 boys last month and the other one's girls are at 33 weeks gestation now so it can happen.
Good luck, I can perfectly understand you DH's feelings, these babies better be VERY placid to make up for this LOL
Hi hun, sounds very much like Bel, she is with twins too...early on lots of bleeding but everytime u/s just show babies are doing well..I hope you soon will pass this stage and truely enjoy your pregnancy!
Be gentle on DH and take good care of each other as you can, it is understandable that you are both feel worn out... its also good that he express that feeling to you, you know men usually is 'bottle up inside and never tell' type...thinking of you hun.
Meredith - I think I have told you before of the woman I saw who bled so much during her pregnancy no one could believe her baby was alive, well and growing normally with no source of bleeding able to be found.
The positive - you are 8 weeks pregnant Your twins are growing well and HB are good. One day closer
As for you and DH - I can only imagine how worn out you both are by this journey Support each other as much as you can but remember that there are many of us here holding your hand. We understand even if our paths are different
Meredith - I'm so glad to hear that your babies are still doing well. I can't imagine how scary the bleeding is, and how difficult this is for you & your DH. I think that's it's really helpful that he explained how he is feeling. People (especially men & women) are different - I think problems often come from not understanding where the other person is coming from because you are in a completely different mindset. But you both have explained to each other how you feel, which at least should make you both more understanding.
Spoke waaay to soon yesterday. not long after doing that post, the bleeding started up again and just continued to get worse and worse until everything was soaked with blood. Ended up taken by ambulance to hospital. Awful, awful,awful internal exam showed cervix open and Dr fairly sure she found "foetal tissue" amongst the massive blood clots. Obviously everyone assumed the worse and were even talking D&C given the level of bleeding, however there was noooooo way I was agreeing to that without u/s. Couldn't do a scan last night and took lots of hassling to eventually get one around 11am today......
The news is equally good and bad. One of our little fighters has gone completely - not even a sac, nothing left to even indicate he/she was ever in there. The other, however, is currently still ok. Measuring exactly 8w1d so has grown since yesterday and HR 182. A couple of smallish blood clots visible but sonogrpaher didn't think to bad given what had happened. I am still in shock really. Totally crushed how things can change so much in the space of a few hrs. Our precious bubba was fine only hrs before leaving us and we will never get an explanation. Yet, I am also amazed by the miracle of a baby that stuck it out through that horrendous ordeal. My hopeful brain thinks its gotta make it given what its been through but my rational brain accepts to 50:50 chance my OB has given us. I so, so, so wanted BOTH these babies but I know I should be very grateful for the hope we still have.
I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious little one, and i hope the other wee babe stays good and tight. It sounds like a very frightening ordeal you've been through, and I hope you are able to stay physically strong with such a lot of bleeding and pain to deal with.
Meredith - I am so very sorry you have lost one of your babies, and still relieved there is a small positive to cling to It is perfectly ok to grieve the loss of a much wanted baby. I am hoping the physical side of you is holding up as I know the emotional one will be taking a battering. Praying for you and your little one xx
Sorry to hear of your loss. I can't believe you've been through so much. Please be kind to yourself, grieve when you need to hon. I am praying desperately that your little bubble remains sticky for you.
OMG Meredith you have been through the roughest roller coaster ride ever. I'm so very sorry that one of your precious much wanted little bubba has grown their tiny angel wings I am praying so hard that your little bubba is tucked in sooooooooo tight and stays that way for the next 7 months or so hun. Please be gentle with yourself and DH...You both have been through so so much..We are all here for you
Meredith, , I am so very sorry to learn of the loss of yet another precious baby. I know there are no words, but know that my thoughts and prayers continue to be with you.
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Your twins are growing well and HB are good. One day closer
Support each other as much as you can but remember that there are many of us here holding your hand. We understand even if our paths are different
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