Spoke waaay to soon yesterday. not long after doing that post, the bleeding started up again and just continued to get worse and worse until everything was soaked with blood. Ended up taken by ambulance to hospital. Awful, awful,awful internal exam showed cervix open and Dr fairly sure she found "foetal tissue" amongst the massive blood clots. Obviously everyone assumed the worse and were even talking D&C given the level of bleeding, however there was noooooo way I was agreeing to that without u/s. Couldn't do a scan last night and took lots of hassling to eventually get one around 11am today......
The news is equally good and bad. One of our little fighters has gone completely - not even a sac, nothing left to even indicate he/she was ever in there. The other, however, is currently still ok. Measuring exactly 8w1d so has grown since yesterday and HR 182. A couple of smallish blood clots visible but sonogrpaher didn't think to bad given what had happened. I am still in shock really. Totally crushed how things can change so much in the space of a few hrs. Our precious bubba was fine only hrs before leaving us and we will never get an explanation. Yet, I am also amazed by the miracle of a baby that stuck it out through that horrendous ordeal. My hopeful brain thinks its gotta make it given what its been through but my rational brain accepts to 50:50 chance my OB has given us. I so, so, so wanted BOTH these babies but I know I should be very grateful for the hope we still have.