Morning ladies i'm having a freak out i don't want to do the test now i have 20 days until i have to have it i just want to pretend that everything is ok and not think about it.
I know i cant it wouldnt be fair on the baby DH and i knew the risks and said if it turns out bad we just need to get on with it and try again but now i am getting nearer to the inevitable reality is setting in i am so scared of being told what we don't want to hear.

Sorry for the meltdown i am not possitive at all.