Reet - It must be hard with DH away, but feel free to come in here and talk about your furbaby all you want to. She was a part of the family and deserves to be remembered. Can't wait to hear how your scan goes, how exciting!
Kellie - How nice being able to buy boy stuff, I guess that's a plus in knowing the sex! I look at pink and blue and have to restrain myself from both... lol. My bubby is breech also, I'm pretty sure they can turn just days before birth if they decide to wait that long. Most do turn though, so fx both of our little ones behave themselves and find their way to the exit
Angelfish - Ugh she sounds horrible! I hope karma sorts her out quicksmart. Just remember though, as sad as it makes you not being able to have the best of the best things for your little one, what they need most is love, and you'll have plenty of that to throw around. Money is only money, but being a loving family is so much more important. We could've gotten a lot more stuff for this baby but we decided to keep the cash in our pockets for DP to be able to take more leave, and give our baby the gift of two parents at home to bond and welcome him/her. I think we've only spent about $300 so far and we have almost everything we need. By the time we're done I think we will have spent about 5 or $600 total.
Audax - Congratulations again! So great to hear you had a wonderful birth experience, and I hope you're enjoying bonding with your beautiful little girl.
AFM - Well, on the subject of ex's, I would just like to thank my lucky stars that DP and his ex gf (they were together 10 years) never had kids. She hung around in the background for the first 18 months or so of our relationship, and if it wasn't for my kindness towards her, it would have caused a lot of problems for us. For a long time I turned a blind eye and allowed DP to help her out when she was stuck and in really desperate situations, and eventually things worked out. She seems to be doing a lot better for herself now (from what little I hear) and she doesn't interfere in our relationship by calling constantly anymore. About a year ago I did have to put my foot down and tell her to back off, and leave us alone as it wasn't appropriate to call her ex at 9pm to laugh at an amusing ad she saw on TV. (especially when we were in bed... *ahem*) I can't imagine how hard it would be to deal with an ex you CAN'T just remove from your lives... that must be so tough.
Anyway, that's my little ramble about ex gfs, lol. I had a lovely morning today hanging out where I used to work catching up with all my old colleagues. I spent about 2 hours there doing the rounds and letting everyone cop a good feel of my belly. LOL. I've never been rubbed so much in one day! I ended up sitting down at an empty desk (which happened to be my old workstation when I first started there) and remembering the good old days. I never thought I'd miss my old job so much! Mostly it's the social contact I miss, but I know it'd be different if I was still working there. Right now I'm enjoying being the centre of attention when I visit, and it's so cute seeing everyone get all excited to see me and examine my bump.
Kell- How did u find out ur baby is breech?? From ur last u/s?? Gosh i just assumed the baby kept doing little somersaults until closer to the end when it moved into the right position.. the little kicks or elbows i feel are always all over the place on my tummy.. hhmmm it will be interesting to see on friday how baby is sitting!
Angelfish- Sorry to hear ur going thru so much crap with ur bfs ex. Just make sure u put urself and ur little baby first. I cant believe how close u are to meeting ur little bubba!!
T-Hopes- Congratulations on reaching ur 14 wk milestone!!! and thanku for ur kind words.. I was and am still absolutely devastated.. i cant see myself ever moving on and not crying over how much im missing her Before i felt like the only one that has ever cried over a dog that has died but ive realised from chatting to u lovely bb girls (i also did a post in the boohoo room) that it is normal for the pain to be overwhelming when something happens to our beloved pets.. it just sux that she was only 10 months old, she was so cute with so much energy and cheekiness.. i cant stand the thought that shes gone.. oh here we go again...
Melster- Whens ur next drs appointment or u/s??? I hope ur slowly starting to feel more positive and that ur m/s disappears soon!!
Audax- Woohoo congratulations!!! So happy that u had such a great birth and enjoying every minute with ur gorgeous little girl
Forshelby- So lovely that u had a good little outing at ur old work does the boss ever get angry when ur there cos not much work gets done by everyone else??!
Hi to all u other lovely ladies too and thanku everyone for all ur kinds words.. really really appreciate it xx
AFM- Still just moping i try my hardest to be strong and can go a few hrs without crying but it ends up catching up with me and im a mess. I feel as tho i shld be starting to move on but im not.. i cant even really bring it up with dh anymore.. i know im starting to frustrate him a bit with all my tears.. he loved her just as much as i did but i guess im just different to him.. hes had dogs die in the past.. he knows how to deal with the grief.. i have no idea... ive never missed anything so much in my life... i just want to wake up and have her back. Theres so many 'if onlys' that are constantly running thru my head.. if only we werent playing with her outside in the first place.. if only she hadnt run to the neighbours house to play with the dog... if only we had waited 30 seconds to call her back... IF ONLY THE MAN WLD HAVE BRAKED... if only she didnt die...
I try my hardest to forget the moment just before she was hit.. she was running back to us full speed with such excitement and then the loud thud.. the poor little thing didnt know what hit her...
I was about a metre off hitting a wallaby on my way home tonight but managed to brake and miss it.. why cldnt he??!!!!!
ANYWAY ANYWAY ANYWAY GOTTA STOP! Howling like a baby again.. im so sorry to bring my sadness in here and bring u all down...
Maybe my hormones are making things 10 times harder... who knows... i just know i cant keep going on like this. Pls send me some strength!!!
On a happier note.. baby has been kicking heaps lately.. maybe its trying to make me happy Im really hoping this scan on friday brings a whole lot of positivity with it!
Love to u all and once again sorry for being such a downer!
thank you everyone for your help
But just when i thought things could not get worse bf got another court summons yesterday haivng to appear three hours away in court now she is trying to say that he has become emotional abusive since he found out i was pregnate which is such BS and she is trying to get supervised vistation. She is going to make the last few well so bad
I cant believe that my lil baby girl will be here in just a few short weeks
Reet-you are right at this stage they roll all over the place my little miss will be head down and kick me near the ribs and all around the top ect and the next day i can feel her feet kicking away down low and OMG! it feels like they are going to pop out my Vjay jay.
Angelfish-Grrrrrr!!!!! ex's they just suck i hope it all turns out in your bf favour.
Forshelby-I am soooooooooo jealous you have already left work i am starting to feel the exhaustion creeping in but with DH out of work i have had to pick up an extra shift a week which is an extra $250 a week oh well only 8 weeks left.
Tegam - I'll second that! I woke up in the middle of the night all sweaty so I had to rip off my nightie and sleep topless, LOL. I think DP wondered what i got up to during the night when he woke up for work.
Reet - Nope, the bosses never get cranky when I arrive. Because there's so many people there I just move around and when someones phone rings or they have something to do I move on and come back later. My old boss is especially fond of my visits, I usually sit beside her at her desk and let her inspect the belly lol. It's nice to feel so welcome even though I don't work there anymore. I'm free to just stroll on in and move around the building as I please whereas other visitors aren't. Lucky me. About your puppy, nobody is truly gone as long as we remember them. I think that goes for pets too. I think it's definitely harder for you being your first loss of a pet, and the fact that you're pg. Heck I cried watching Friends the other day, lol. Try not to indulge in the 'if onlys'. There's nothing that can be done now to change it. Don't feel guilty either, as it's not your fault. It's just a matter of taking each day as it comes, and grieving as you need to. But don't for one second think you did anything to cause this, because you didn't. Like I said before, you can talk about your furbaby all you want. If you need to be captain bringdown for a while, I'd be happy to be your loyal sidekick, I just need a decent name.
Angelfish - Ugh it just gets worse and worse! Get yourself some good character witnesses. Can you testify also? I'm pretty sure YOU would know him pretty well. Also, perhaps her definition of emotionally abusive is 'no longer focussed solely on her'. It seems she's jealous that you're pg and she won't be the only woman with babies he's thinking about now. Is it possible for you to speak to her at all? How would she feel if someone was piling all this stress onto her during her last weeks of pregnancy? Maybe you can appeal to her sense of decency, if she has one.
Ferrals - Funny how we always want what we don't have no matter what it is. I'm jealous that you still have your job! LOL. I get so bored and lonely here by myself all day...... but I do enjoy the sleep. Not long now and you can be bored like me, LOL.
AFM - Not really much to report. It's hot here and I'm just dying for the weekend to come so I have DP home with me and I don't have to be so bored all the time. I know, I won't be bored when this bubby arrives, but right now I feel like I've been at home for an ETERNITY~!
Reet - sweetheart, you keep crying as much as you need! I would be exactly the same. I have lost a dog to old age and that was horrific enough for me, let alone seeing your poor darling in pain at such a young age... im sure she has found your angel baby in heaven and they are safe, happy and healthy together. Let those tears fall as long you need, better to deal with your emotions than bury them away sending you lots of love and strength xx
Can't wait to hear how your scan goes, how exciting!
Before i felt like the only one that has ever cried over a dog that has died but ive realised from chatting to u lovely bb girls (i also did a post in the boohoo room) that it is normal for the pain to be overwhelming when something happens to our beloved pets.. it just sux that she was only 10 months old, she was so cute with so much energy and cheekiness.. i cant stand the thought that shes gone.. oh here we go again... 
everyone else!
Like I said before, you can talk about your furbaby all you want. If you need to be captain bringdown for a while, I'd be happy to be your loyal sidekick, I just need a decent name. 
sending you lots of love and strength xx
Bookmarks