Kell- How did u find out ur baby is breech?? From ur last u/s?? Gosh i just assumed the baby kept doing little somersaults until closer to the end when it moved into the right position.. the little kicks or elbows i feel are always all over the place on my tummy.. hhmmm it will be interesting to see on friday how baby is sitting!

Angelfish- Sorry to hear ur going thru so much crap with ur bfs ex. Just make sure u put urself and ur little baby first. I cant believe how close u are to meeting ur little bubba!!

T-Hopes- Congratulations on reaching ur 14 wk milestone!!! and thanku for ur kind words.. I was and am still absolutely devastated.. i cant see myself ever moving on and not crying over how much im missing her Before i felt like the only one that has ever cried over a dog that has died but ive realised from chatting to u lovely bb girls (i also did a post in the boohoo room) that it is normal for the pain to be overwhelming when something happens to our beloved pets.. it just sux that she was only 10 months old, she was so cute with so much energy and cheekiness.. i cant stand the thought that shes gone.. oh here we go again...

Melster- Whens ur next drs appointment or u/s??? I hope ur slowly starting to feel more positive and that ur m/s disappears soon!!

Audax- Woohoo congratulations!!! So happy that u had such a great birth and enjoying every minute with ur gorgeous little girl

Forshelby- So lovely that u had a good little outing at ur old work does the boss ever get angry when ur there cos not much work gets done by everyone else??!

Hi to all u other lovely ladies too and thanku everyone for all ur kinds words.. really really appreciate it xx

AFM- Still just moping i try my hardest to be strong and can go a few hrs without crying but it ends up catching up with me and im a mess. I feel as tho i shld be starting to move on but im not.. i cant even really bring it up with dh anymore.. i know im starting to frustrate him a bit with all my tears.. he loved her just as much as i did but i guess im just different to him.. hes had dogs die in the past.. he knows how to deal with the grief.. i have no idea... ive never missed anything so much in my life... i just want to wake up and have her back. Theres so many 'if onlys' that are constantly running thru my head.. if only we werent playing with her outside in the first place.. if only she hadnt run to the neighbours house to play with the dog... if only we had waited 30 seconds to call her back... IF ONLY THE MAN WLD HAVE BRAKED... if only she didnt die...
I try my hardest to forget the moment just before she was hit.. she was running back to us full speed with such excitement and then the loud thud.. the poor little thing didnt know what hit her...
I was about a metre off hitting a wallaby on my way home tonight but managed to brake and miss it.. why cldnt he??!!!!!
ANYWAY ANYWAY ANYWAY GOTTA STOP! Howling like a baby again.. im so sorry to bring my sadness in here and bring u all down...

Maybe my hormones are making things 10 times harder... who knows... i just know i cant keep going on like this. Pls send me some strength!!!

On a happier note.. baby has been kicking heaps lately.. maybe its trying to make me happy Im really hoping this scan on friday brings a whole lot of positivity with it!

Love to u all and once again sorry for being such a downer!

xxx