oh dear. I'm stressed out of my noggin again. I've coped with the spotting, I've coped with the subchorionic hematoma (SCH), I've coped with cutting out all activity and working from home for a few weeks. What "coped" is I'm still not sure, but i've done my best. And luckily i've had 2 good scans, and the second one didn't show the SCH. So I'm still on reduced activity just to be careful until I see my obs on the 3rd March.

But then late last night I bled . Not just spotted. Bled bright red blood that went straight through my clothes. It's stopped over night & today (just a bit brown wipe sorry if TMI). I'm so sick of stressing about this. I'm so sick of trying to pick myself up after every thing that happens.

I've been to the doc, and he said yep, another scan.. but it's Sat and I can't get in anywhere unless I go wait for ages at E&R... which seems overkill now that that the bleeding has stopped. So I'll wait till monday for another scan & try not to stress (HA!).

I'd stomp around the house swearing my head off but that would probably be too much activity! I just... I just wish it would all be ok. And nothing says it's not, but i'm just so very very scared it won't be ok... and the waiting is just foul. And the wondering. And it just seems like every week throws something new at us. I'd learnt to deal with the spotting, I'd stopped stressing (too much) about the SCH. I really didn't need bleeding as well. All my friends seem to cruise through their pregnancies... one moment I'm still so happy I'm PG, and the next I feel like i'll feel silly if it's all ok, to have got this stressed... oh dear just too many thoughts really

ok that's the end of my self-indulgent vent. Thanks for listening