Ok, this is a big 'eye roller' I know but being my first time I really don't know what to think.

I have started to feel really down in several different ways.

I am 25 weeks & have already put on 11 kilo's, I have been around 52k for a few years & put 2k on during my IVF cycle so I was at 54k when I fell pregnant. Truthfully I have had eating disorders/problems in the past & as a result I try to be very careful with my feelings regarding this & have never restricted my food intake during this pregnancy.

I looked at pictures of myself at 20 weeks & i was half this size! I'm getting really scared that I will never feel attractive again. Is this normal?

I'm reading all these posts in other areas about women who are nearly in thier third trimester & have yet to put on any weight, everyone I see tells me how big I am. I feel like I have done the wrong thing in getting so big but how could I have changed that?

Please don't think me irrational, I am fully aware that this happens differently for everyone but I am not sure how to process this in a more positive way. I am stricken with feelings of guilt even thinking about this considering how badly I have wanted this & how blessed I am to have a wonderful & healthy baby boy on the way but I am also just a person who hasn't dealt with this particular reality before & am feeling a bit fragile.

Any advice or personal stories would be of help & reassurance to me. I feel a bit alone with it all.