I just can't thank you all enough for being so supportive, caring & thoughtful.

As you can understand, it is one thing to talk to DH about this & have him say "But you look so beautiful honey" (which is lovely to hear) but it is another to actually discuss it with women who have experienced this. I truly believe that this is such a distinctly feminine experience that there has to be real credit paid to that.

I guess to me 65k just represents an overweight, unhappy teenager that had everything in her life going wrong. When I stepped on the scales & saw that little neon number flashing it was just enough to tip all the feelings I have been having into overdrive.... although this is the happiest & worthiest cause imaginable once an 'anorexic' always an anorexic.

I take my hat of to each an every one of you that has gone through this process before & is currently experiencing it now with a clear head. Your words just make so much sense to me.... the last thing I want is to be jumped on & told not to be silly so it is nice to hear such well rounded advice.

I guess I even get scared about what will happen when the baby is born, thinking I will turn into a dieting excercising monster (how will I have the strength to say goodbye to crusty bread & potatoes? ), but also understanding that I have only ever known what it is to be the centre of my own world & that notion will dissapear the moment I meet my little man.

Thanks so much, you have given me valuable & much needed perspective =D>