Guilt over my own happiness...

[Willow]

Good on you for being so brave Nicole, it's not an easy conversation to have.

[The[cookie]Doctor]

Hi Nicole,
I can't say i'm experiencing the same as you, but firstly i have to inform that whilst i am 18 wks pg, my dear mum, is 20 wks with twins.
M & Step-D were trying through IVF for more than 12mths so when they conceived, and miraculously ended up with identical twins they were very excited.
Mum's always been very open about mine and her sex life with me and used to joke with me about paying for my prescription just to make sure i was on the pill so she could have more babies first! So i was extremely panicked when i ended up pg and had to tell mum, with the worry of her losing the twins etc.
Mum's just had her 20wk scan on friday, & found out the the twins have the beginning of Twin to Twin Transfusion syndrome . Obviously the sonographer didn't know a lot about the TTTS but from what i've researched it's highly dangerous, and if mum loses either or both of the babies, i'm going to feel like i've robbed her of something special. The thought of that makes me slightly weepy with guilt, because i know how much it means to her!
So, whilst not the same, and i'm not feeling left out of my parents/families/friends adorations, i'm more scared about my mum's pregnancy more than my own...