Kitt3n - Thanks for your reply. It's been an issue that's raised it's head generally once a month. I've tried talking to DF in every way possible, even asked her if she wants to shower with me, etc, but she just seems completely switched off about it all. We also unfortunatley experienced a mc back in Sept., so I do take into account that DF may be possibly scared of DTD and unsettling anything.

csab - Firstly I'd like to say a big hiya to you and hugs, it's been a while since I've been on here (actually lost my p/w lol) and it's great to hear from some old friends on the bubby journey.
We are both sooo soooo happy about being utd now, like you said, we had been trying for a while, but I've gone from totally illated to now just a numb feeling because of our major decline in the BD dept. Dont get me wrong, I'm not numb about being pg, I'm the happiest 'father to be' in the world, it's just the rejection numbness. I think the one thing I'm scared of is if/when DF does decide she's ready for DTD once again, that my mind has blocked out those feelings and I wont find it appealing anymore. I'm really trying not to be selfish, it does sound like it's all about me, but I'm feeling like DF is thinking only of herself, and not what my emotions are doing to me.

Shorty - Hiya, ya, but not getting it all, that's my concern. Am I bein selfish for wanting it, or is DF bein selfish for not seeing my point of view?