I really feed terrible about the whole thing, but its definately not an on-going thing, and i dont wanna go to my midwife or doc, cause then i seem like some hopeless mother, who is going to be depressed and drinking all the time
Cause thats definately not the case
Talking to Dr or Middy doesn't make you seem like a hopeless Mum. Quite the opposite in fact - it makes you seem like a self-aware mother who is smart enough to recognise a potential problem and step up before it grows into something worse.
I read somewhere that most couples don't seek counseling until it is pretty much too late. It's worth stepping on problems before they get out of control.