I lost my mum in the Jan and then my DH in the April, and had a 9 month old DD. I look back now, I was 23 , and think how did I ever get through it.

My DD and I did, and you will too. We did it hard over the years financially. then things come your way, and you get by, it's not the fairy tale life, we all dreamed of, but you will find a life that is fullfilling.

Right now you really need to take one day at a time, it wont be suffering and misery for the next so many years, it's just right now, you are in the worst of it, so it's hard to see anything postive.

I helped a young g/f who is a single mum, get her own place, and budget when she thought her life was at it's end. You really need support and some direction right now, and everything will fall into place.

If you really feel your accom is a **** hole, can you look online and apply for another unit, one that, will be more pleasant for you to spend time in ? That may be step one.. Perhaps one quite close to your mum, as you will need to draw on her for support.