Darl, this is some pretty heavy stuff you're dealing with so don't feel silly for feeling scared. Anyone would be feeling ovewhelmed, confused and daunted in your situation.

I do agree with Divvy - if the police won't drop the charges, it must be pretty serious. Please take care of yourself, NOT him and perhaps firstly, get some counselling for yourself. I know it won't happen straight away, but one day you will realise that you deserve much better than that.

Secondly, there's been some great advice on here about support networks. I know it's hard to motivate yourself when you're feeling down - is there anyone who could make some phone calls for you. Perhaps as a first step, call Lifeline and see what they have to say.