Emma - your story sounds a lot like mine. My DH was great most of the time, we were/hopefully still are, best friends. He's a great Dad and someone I could always count on, trust, etc. BUT no body is perfect and he did a lot of things wrong and there were a lot of things he sucked at. I just found that I couldn't live with the sucky things anymore...

I felt terrible, breaking up the family when there wasn't anything really wrong. But you're right - you shouldn't have to live in a love-less relationship. I love DH - always will but I want more and so does he - he's reaslised that and so will your DH because chances are he's not happy he just doesn't want to change anything.

It breaks my heart when he sayd goodbye to the kids but it is getting easier for him and it will for your DH.

But to answer your question - YES I am a lot happier. It's really, really bloody hard bringing up 3 kids by yourself (one will obviously be easier but still hard) and I really miss having someone to debrief to at the end of the day (even if he didn't listen). But i'm a stronger person already and I love that. I felt like I was really weak with him and that person has gone!

I think a trial seperation is a good idea. My DH wouldn't agree to that at first but soon changed his mind when faced with the alternative. I knew pretty much the first week that we weren't going to get back together and so might you, but you'll never know till you try. Yes, you do deserve to be happy and I am so glad i'm facing singledom and 3 kids at 28 not 38!

Good luck hun, let me know if you want to chat