Willow, I'm sorry you are having such a crap time. Things for me have been pretty rough lately, too. Getting a lot of crap from work at the moment, which is just making the whole process more difficult.

I seem to recall that you live in a similarish area to me... who is your current specialist? It seems my DH has finally realised just how unhelpful our current guy is and is agreeing with me on needing a new one. Progress at last!

BW